Nightmare?

"Twins?  That's my worse nightmare." "I wouldn't wish twins on my worse enemy." 

or my favorites 

"Twins?  You're going to get huge!" and "Well, just goes to show you should be careful what you wish for."

Do you know how many times I've heard those words spoken to me?  

Yes, multiples come with their own set of challenges.  We not only have to worry that our one little baby is growing and staying healthy, we have to worry that two children are getting enough food, enough fluid, enough room.  I'm not going to lie, I already worry that I spend too much time in the day trying to feel one kicking then the other.  Physically, I have extra strain on my body from my two little ones then I would if I just had one.  Our doctor appointments are starting to come closer together now, along with the monthly ultrasounds until they are born.  We now wait every 4 weeks to know if we'll be transferred to a high risk doctor if something looks wrong on one of those ultrasounds.  So yes, they come with challenges before they are even here.

Once they are born we will not have to the ability to be thrown into parenthood with one screaming newborn.  We will each be up with our own child during the night.  We will have to purchase two cribs, two car seats, two swings, two wardrobes, double the diapers, double everything.  So yes, I can see how one could view the multiples as their "worse nightmare."

The funny thing is, that's not how we see it.  We sit at our ultrasounds and watch our two beautiful children kicking each other.  I love how I can feel two little ones moving and kicking in there.  I love how sometimes I can't tell them apart but when I can it's amazing.  We love how we are getting blessed with the best of both worlds.  We love how we can already tell that Ezra has my nose.  We love how they each seem to have their own little personalities already.  Ezra is the wiggler and Hayden is the kicker.  We love the fact that they love fried chicken, hot showers, and cold water.

We can't wait to watch our son and daughter interact once they can see each other.  We can't wait to watch them grow.  We are interested to see if they will soothe each other when the other is crying or if they will feed off each other.

As far as "you're going to get huge." Yes, I've known all along that I'm going to be larger then other pregnant women but just like everyone says "every pregnancy is different" every pregnant women looks different.  I've known plenty of women that carried one child that got very large and one women who carried four babies who at 34 weeks was smaller then I am now at 20 weeks with twins.

We didn't ask for twins but we did pray for God's Will be to be done.  Everything depends on how you choose to view it.  There will be challenges, don't think we don't know that, but we could never view our son and daughter as a nightmare.  So if not being careful for what I wished for gave me our two precious children to love then I'll be less careful from now on.